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[attached: (1) a link to a livestock auction in jackson, WY next tuesday. or whatever day, idc. (2) a screenshot the available lots — Bracken's circled two American quarter horses from Moon Flower Ranch: a grullo dun mare listed as '10 Diamond Dustfire' and a red dun gelding listed as 'Stardust Ranger.']

hey lil bo peep can bri n i fix up that stable of yours [...] and maybe do some other stuff too

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Don't even really know. Just [...] they were kids when we left. Kids we pretty much raised. Don't think there's any way that won't be [...] difficult if any of them are there.

I know that pack dynamics are [...] complicated. Often in ways I find fairly incomprehensible. But you do not think those things can be repaired? Or at least be settled enough that they are not a clear and present burden?

What are the consequences of speaking?

I don't think anything horrible is going to happen. ~~But it's going to make me feel like shit to see them and~~

Can't mend anything without causing problems for them, so. Any talking I imagine will have to be pure business or aggression.

Hopefully they're just not even there.

That is a start.

Am I permitted to say something that you may not like?

Bracken's stressed about it understandably so I'm trying my best to not get too doom and gloom.

[...]

Yeah, shoot.

I am very proud of you.

[...]

If they had no longer found themselves pleased with the life that they were living, they could have left as well. They were children then, yes. But they are not children any longer.

I am not saying that is a simple thing to do. Or it is an easy path to see. But not everything is your fault.

[....]

Just don't want to make things harder for them. We didn't get to choose if we left. They should at least be able to.

Your presence does not force them into any particular action, hayatım. You are an option, but not one they are made to explore. If anything, you are showing them that there is life beyond whatever constraints you were made to grow up in.

And I do not think it has turned out so terribly for either of you.

I know. And I know they're all grown up too. Also know that my life now is a million times better than it ever could have been there.

~~But it was so hard~~

Maybe they won't even be there.

A million? I do not know if I could put numbers on it, bir tanem, but I have been called a delight to be around.

Perhaps. We will cross that metaphorical bridge if and when we come to it.

Maybe we can get you human for a day again so you can use any old number anywhere. And you're a nightmare, actually.

Yeah. No use getting wound up over maybes. ~~But~~

True. I have been called that as well. But it is nowhere near as flattering, so I am choosing to concentrate on the former.

You may get wound up if it helps. I am just assuring you that, if and when, it will get figured out.

I do sometimes enjoy your company, I have to admit.

[...]

Thanks, Keda. For being good about this and managing me and Bracken. Not that I was expecting anything else. ~~It's~~ [...] I appreciate it.

Why are you thanking me, Briar Hemming?

I am not managing you. It is not good of me. I love you and you are mine. You are both mine. It it not something I am doing.